FOD Chap 7.3

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Chapter 7.3

The courtiers submitted petitions for Qi Xiu Jie’s execution for more than half a month, but Li Jin Tian remained unmoved throughout, on the contrary, he even reinstated Qi Xiu Jie’s position as an Imperial Concubine.

Every night, he would dream back to that lonely and cold palace, seeing Qi Xiu Jie kneel in front of his memorial tablet and weep. That grief, suppressed to the extreme, and those deathly still eyes that could not show a hint of joy even when sitting upon the Empress seat repeatedly tormented Li Jin Tian’s nerves. He thought that Qi Xiu Jie had lived a luxurious life after his death, but found that he had also become a walking corpse. The only thing that motivated him to continue living was the thought of seeking revenge on his behalf.

In this case, it seemed that he was the lucky one for dying first, while the one left behind was trapped in endless pain and despair.

The Qi family used all their clan’s power to recover the throne, most of their clan members were killed or wounded in battle, leaving only the elderly and weak women and children. And Qi Xiu Jie also committed suicide after burying the bones of his late husband, never enjoying a bit of the glory. Li Jin Tian often woke up from this dream, his chest unceasingly stifled with pain.

He wanted to see how Qi Xiu Jie was doing, but he felt too timid and guilt ridden, so he could only live with tangled emotions day after day. Unconsciously, he’d already started believing in the two dreams. But he would rather disband the entire harem for Gao Min’s sake, these emotions could not be faked, so he wouldn’t move against the Gao family until they committed an act of treason.

On this day, the courtiers finally relented and no longer petitioned the emperor to execute the Qi family’s final spawn, expressing their concerns about the frequent invasions by the Xiyi race instead. Prince Li was the first to come forward to beg the emperor to send troops to Xiyi, followed by Gao Lang, then the rest of the court officials.

Li Jin Tian was already interested in conquering Xiyi, so he immediately expressed that he would set up troops as quickly as possible.

“Dare to question Your Majesty, do you have a suitable candidate for General?” Prince Li bowed and inquired.

“No, you can recommend me a few.”

“This small official recommends General Gao Min, does Your Majesty find this appropriate?”

Prince Li’s statement shocked the other courtiers. They all knew who Gao Min was, they also all knew that before he entered the harem, he was a fierce general that guarded the borders. But now he already belonged to the emperor, and had also given birth to a prince, how could he fraternize with soldiers again? That’s indecent!

Some wanted to step forward to oppose, but Gao Lang stepped forward to vigorously recommend his younger brother, even phrasing it in an elegant way, ‘When appointing people by their merits, don’t exclude friends or relatives’. Gao Lang knew that Li Jin Tian’s favor and tolerance for his brother was bottomless, so he’d cooperated with Prince Li to put out this bold proposal.

Li Jin Tian had bottomless tolerance for Gao Min, this was the truth, but it was all in the past. Now, Li Jin Tian was like a blindfolded person who’d suddenly been relieved of their cloth, he could finally see the circumstances of the imperial court and the harem clearly.

The courtiers who had obviously wanted to oppose silently returned to their seats after Gao Lang spoke up. Anyone could see that the imperial court had already become Gao Lang and Prince Li’s territory. The emperor was only a display piece, just nodding whenever they put forth a suggestion. Most of the beauties in the harem had already been dismissed by him, leaving behind the few that managed to bear children. They didn’t have the emperor’s favor, all of them relied on Gao Min’s tongue to live.

The harem had already been thoroughly turned into the Gao family’s territory, was there any room for the emperor? And why would Prince Li recommend Gao Min? What was the relationship between them in private?

Li Jin Tian’s heart was burning, but it didn’t show on his face, he just said in a mild tone that he would need a few days to think about it before he made a decision. Gao Lang and Prince Li did not push it, anyway, they both knew that once Li Jin Tian went back to the harem, Gao Min would find a way to convince him.

Gao Min was tired of being trapped inside the high walls of the palace. After Li Jin Tian ended the court session, he went to Yang Xin Palace and pleaded to be made commander of Xiyi.

Li Jin Tian refused by making the excuse that he needed to take care of their child, but he didn’t give up, he knelt down and coldly said, “Your Majesty once said that you’d let me walk shoulder to shoulder with you. Was your so-called shoulder to shoulder just trapping me in this golden cage to be your pet? I can sacrifice my life for Your Majesty, but Your Majesty can’t even grant me this one wish?”

He raised his eyes to look straight at the emperor, his eyes were full of reluctance and resentment. That resentment had continued from the last life into this life, in fact, it grew thicker and thicker, to the point where it could never dissolve. He had already planned to open up his heart and accept Li Jin Tian, but he didn’t expect the other man to forgive Qi Xiu Jie for no reason, so his resentment was ignited and boiling again.

At the same time, he hated himself, feeling that he should not be caught up in the whirlpool of fighting for favor like a female, living without dignity. He wanted to put on armor and pick up the sword, setting foot on the free and expansive land of the frontier.

If the two could sit down and talk it out, they would be able to resolve this conflict. But now, Li Jin Tian was stabbed by the resentment in Gao Min’s eyes. He’d thought that after three years of cuddling, even a stone could be warmed up, but he didn’t expect Gao Min’s heart to be harder than a stone. Gao Min was unexpectedly resentful of what happened in the past life, he really wasn’t willing to accompany him to the spring. This resentment might drive him to do something harmful to him one day, and he was defenseless against his attacks.

Li Jin Tian was terrified, he suddenly felt that he was really foolish for thinking he could live peacefully with Gao Min after they were reborn. He stared at Gao Min for a long time, then stormed off.

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Li Jin Tian wandered aimlessly through the palace and unwittingly arrived at the Zi Chen Palace. He hesitated for a long time before stepping in.

Qi Xiu Jie was standing behind a desk, practicing his writing. His head was bowed, hiding his expression. When he heard the servant’s announcement, he seemed very surprised, eyes full of disbelief and gratefulness.

“This villain attends to the Emperor.” He knelt down respectfully.

Li Jin Tian didn’t tell him to rise, just looking at him with deep and unfathomable eyes, after a long while he slowly asked, “Have you been well lately?”

“Replying to the Emperor, this villain’s life is very good.”

Li Jin Tian was slightly startled by his words. This can be considered a good life? Living in an empty palace without luxurious furnishings or personal servants, just like the cold palace?  But yes, compared to the gruesome prison, isn’t this infinitely better?

Feelings of guilt attacked his heart once again, making Li Jin Tian feel suffocated in his chest. He sat on a chair and waved his hand, “Get up.”

Zhou Yun Sheng didn’t move, he hesitated for a moment before replying in a hoarse voice, “This villain has an unsettled matter on his heart, so he dares not get up.”

Li Jin Tian suddenly had a gloomy expression, as if he knew what his question would be about, but he still rubbed his brows and tiredly said, “Don’t hesitate to ask your doubts.”

Zhou Yun Sheng gave a cautious kowtow, asking in a sorrowful tone, “Dare to question Your Majesty, why do you want to destroy my Qi family? What did we do wrong?”

“Your father and Xuan Wang secretly colluded to rebel; didn’t you know?” When he said this, Li Jin Tian felt pangs after pangs of weakness in his heart. When he was purging the Qi family, he actually hadn’t found any proof of misconduct. He could no longer swear that his decision to wipe out the Qi family was the right one. He wanted to find the truth, but was afraid to touch the truth.

The light in Zhou Yun Sheng’s eyes died, a haggard look on his face. He felt deep shame, knocking his head against the floor serval times, he choked out, “So that was the case, this villain actually had no knowledge of this matter. This villain is ashamed to face Your Majesty, please, Your Majesty, put this villain to death!” After saying this, he knocked his head a few more times, so hard that his forehead started to bleed.

Li Jin Tian quickly reached out to pull him up, then looked into his eyes with resolve. His eyes were a pure black, except for shame, despair and guilt, there was no trace of resentment. He’d destroyed his family, but Qi Xiu Jie felt no resentment, he was also willing to die. His loyalty to him did not pale in comparison to Gao Min’s.

No, that was wrong, his loyalty was much greater than Gao Min’s. In the last life, although Qi Xiu Jie had a reputation for being arrogant, he was always submissive in front of him, he never disobeyed. Although the type of loyalty that made Gao Min accompany him till death was rare, Qi Xiu Jie had forced himself to live in humiliation, trying every possible means to avenge him. His heart bore so much suffering that it was probably even more painful than death.

That’s why Qi Xiu Jie couldn’t hold out after it was over, he didn’t enjoy the glory he should’ve enjoyed, just dying alone in the Zi Chen Palace, hanging from the roof beam.

Looking at the person who was humbled into dust in front of him, who had completely given up on living because of him, Li Jin Tian felt like a knife was stabbing into his heart. In the last life, he thought he’d loved the wrong person, but in fact he hadn’t; In this life, he thought he loved the right person, but in fact he was wrong again. Qi Xiu Jie did everything for him, but didn’t say anything, while Gao Min constantly brought up his kindness in the last life, afraid he would forget it.

He was wrong for two lifetimes, but at this point, he was so deeply in love with Gao Min that he couldn’t take it back. He thought he was extremely pitiful. But the Qi Xiu Jie in front of him whose heart had died, was a million times more pitiful than he was.

Both of them had been played by fate.

With Gao Min’s cold resentment as a contrast, Qi Xiu Jie’s humbleness made Li Jin Tian’s guilt towards him root even deeper. He forcefully pulled the other man up, pressed him into the chair and cautiously urged, “I don’t blame you, you must live well,” he paused a moment, then added, “I’ll take good care of you. I can compensate you for whatever you want.”

A flicker of light broke out from Zhou Yun Sheng’s dead eyes, he hesitantly asked, “Is it okay for this villain to want a child?”

Li Jin Tian was once again stumped by his question. He knew that Gao Min had poisoned Qi Xiu Jie soon after rebirth, because he suspected that Qi Xiu Jie was responsible for the death of his son in the last life. Li Jin Tian treated it as compensation and pretended not to know, he even secretly cooperated. Qi Xiu Jie’s body was already completely destroyed, he absolutely couldn’t have any children.

And in the last life, in Xuan Wang’s harem, Qi Xiu Jie had also destroyed his own body so he wouldn’t give birth to Xuan Wang’s evil spawn.

This was simply a rotten debt that couldn’t be summed up. Li Jin Tian felt a splitting headache, and he was even more afraid to face Qi Xiu Jie.

Qi Xiu Jie seemed to sense the reason behind his hesitation, he added, “This villain was not asking for a biological child. This villain’s family has committed such a heinous crime, this villain doesn’t dare hope for Your Majesty’s favor once again. These days, there are many children in the palace who have lost their Imperial Concubine Mother or Father, this villain only wants to adopt one. This villain is already all alone in the world……”

His humble words were like a blunt knife, cutting into Li Jin Tian’s heart slice by slice. He understood his meaning- he was all alone in the world, lonely and helpless, if he doesn’t have someone to console him, he might give up on living like in the last life. The degree of Li Jin Tian’s hate towards Qi Xiu Jie before was the degree of guilt he felt now, he threw out a ‘pick anyone you want’ and quickly fled. His face was burning red, as if he’d received a dozen slaps.           

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T/N:

Xiyi- Western Barbarians, it’s supposed to be a people, but the author is treating it like a place. idk                                                                 

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Authoresswolfe
Authoresswolfe
1 month ago

Why do I feel like that ML will be from Xiyi???🤔🤔

Awl
Awl
3 months ago

I can’t believe ZYS has to pretend to be a stupidly loyal person who won’t even resent the Emperor after his family was destroyed by him. What person is like that?
Does the Emperor really believe such a person exists?

CasshhH
CasshhH
3 days ago
Reply to  Awl

The emperor thinks too much of himself lol

Last edited 3 days ago by CasshhH
lovlis
lovlis
5 months ago

Well I’m conflicted. Emperor is definitely not blameless, he’s been responsible for way too many deaths and wasn’t a competent ruler in the first place.
The general MC honestly seems like the sort of mc i would like in a different novel. He’s not perfect but can’t expect him to. He shouldn’t have killed all the qi family and poisoned the og just because of “suspicions” tho.
Doesn’t make the mc’s actions “good” however, but they are to fulfill the og’s wishes as well.

loquentes ineptias
loquentes ineptias
6 months ago

This whole tragedy is because of the emperor. Gao Min isn’t blameless,but, seriously, he never wanted to become part of the imperial harem from the beginning. He ruined his dreams, dragged him to hell, chained him, destroyed his once ‘pure’ (kinda) heart, his child was killed, and still expect him to stay as ‘good’ as before and even love him??? And like always, the emperor was blind to the palace intrigue, only focusing on immersing himself in debauchery. Sigh… this is why I hate royalties. If he never brought Gao Min in all this tragedy… would still happen but not to this extent.

Kawaii Panda
Kawaii Panda
7 months ago

I really feel sorry for these cannon folders who mc manipulated (・_・;)

Kawaii Panda
Kawaii Panda
7 months ago

Lmao, was it only me thinking that the child he might adopt be his lover 😂

N.O.
N.O.
7 months ago
Reply to  Kawaii Panda

Me too😂its gonna be kinky if u imagine the pup you raised grows up to be a wolf to eat u🤣

Last edited 7 months ago by N.O.
Xian Yi Xi
Xian Yi Xi
1 year ago

We got a very villainous MC here……. Manipulating and Hypnotizing other and making people life miserable……. not complaining.
Love how our MC is so different from other MC’s we usually see. Love his selfishness. Also love how he fulfill the owner desire and wish and revenge like as a replacement of using Owner body and life.

Also i feel bad that MC just broke this couple (Emperor and his wife), poor Emperor, let his next life be peaceful.

Zezeze
Zezeze
1 year ago
Reply to  Xian Yi Xi

This is gaslighting on a whole new level.
I get it, he needed to do this, but damn…

Last edited 1 year ago by Zezeze
Nads07
Nads07
1 year ago

Lmao I feel so pathetic – I know he’s lying/manipulating to make the Emperor feel guilt, so why am I crying? Hahaha I think my mum thinks I’ve gone a bit mad, giggling while crying like this…

Navleu
Navleu
2 years ago

Now he wants to raise a Child after he was unwilling in the last ger world! What’s gonna say the ML when he shows up!

Thanks for the chapter!

KNovel_Otaku
KNovel_Otaku
8 months ago
Reply to  Navleu

He probably wants to raise the kid as an emperor

Re:start
Re:start
2 years ago

Yusheng should get an actors award already!!!

Blaze
Blaze
2 years ago

The MC is a real Master of Manipulation.

Cloockworker
Cloockworker
2 years ago

Me encanta esta historia, porque no es la típica de que el protagonista es un santo, no, ya tiene su personalidad y es genial, los “protagonistas” de los mundos no son los típicos puros y heroicos, simplemente son humanos
Por otro lado, raios ya van como 7 mundos y aún sigo creyendome las mentiras de ZYS :v

jo12kspj
jo12kspj
3 years ago

this whole confusion and politics makes me remember of a quote from one piece.
“’A’ are evil? ‘B’ are righteous?… Justice will prevail, you say? But of course it will! Whoever wins this war becomes justice!”

was the assassination of the emperor a bad thing? was it a good thing? who knows.
i would always side with the one who makes people lives better, did the one that plotted in their fist life made the country better? then i would side with them.
looking at hem tho, those two protagonist are as bad as it can get.
self-centered, genocide driven and crazy people. nothing even close to a good leader.

what is power? they are not victims. they didn’t simple killed those families, they also changed the politics so everything is rigid, killing everyone that comes close to wanting to take them down. how can there be so many wanting to rebel?

int he end, in this politic war the only thing that surprises me is yunsheng ability to psychologically destroy someone. this one is only second to the 300k rain, but this one is special, since all the suffering is all derived from a dream.

yunsheng is the worst kind of enemy one can have…

aFallenLeaf
aFallenLeaf
3 years ago
Reply to  jo12kspj

Yeah, I remember the emperor being a tyrant in this life or last life.
It wouldn’t be strange to overthrow that kind of ruler :0
It’s just…excesively planning hatred and even kill Gao Min’s child had made Qia Xinjie the ‘bad guy’ in Gao Min’s mind.

Actually, what Yunsheng thought about Gao Min being a enemy too because he did the same to the previous owner was pretty much fit I think.
In the end, it’s a conflict of interest

Cass🌙
Cass🌙
7 months ago
Reply to  jo12kspj

Yeah just killing a whole family is crazy enough but it was also on just speculation like 🤨

iamabanana
iamabanana
3 years ago

I got a question here, Qi Xiujie before Yun Sheng came is a bad person?
If so, wouldn’t that means Yun Sheng deleted Xiujie’s fault from the Emperor’s mind?
And he’s helping a bad person to clean his name?

iamabanana
iamabanana
3 years ago
Reply to  Keztrans

Ah, I see. Thanks for the input yo

Chubby_chubchub
Chubby_chubchub
3 years ago
Reply to  iamabanana

It was also stated later on in the story that they are not actually evil, but realists. They sided with the faction that had a higher chance of giving their family security of survival during the turmoil for the throne. So you can’t exactly call them evil for wanting to side with the faction that can better protect their family after the turmoil subsides.

Smr85
Smr85
3 years ago
Reply to  iamabanana

Not really bad, he just involved in harem fight in last life. Also this Emperor also not really a good emperor he indulged in pleasure and neglect the country, the reason Xuan Wang rebellion cause Xuan Wang want to make better kingdom. Remember, being a protagonist here not equal being a good guy, sometimes the protagonist in fact a real douche with golden finger

heshekell
heshekell
3 years ago
Reply to  Smr85

“this Emperor also not really a good emperor”

THIS. I find it funny that the Emperor is so indigant when he caused a whole country to suffer. It even said his brother only took action after seeing how the people were suffering. Doesn’t like his brother was a bad guy. He obviously had more conscious that the Emperor.

jo12kspj
jo12kspj
3 years ago
Reply to  heshekell

also even now, it was written that the country almost broken down and it was only the pair son, that was in this case a exceptional politician and leader, that recovered the country to a better state. the fear of a genocide driven leader is too much. it is not like one can eliminate everyone, than there is no country if there is no people.

kayue
kayue
3 years ago

VERY complicated! Thanks for the note

IamyourLover
IamyourLover
3 years ago

There’s one thing tha I could only say right now.. Im effin’ cryin’.. fuck my life.. My heart couldnt stop hurting eventhough its not true..*while listening to taigektou’s songs*